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Goodbye Sweet Saya

I was trying to post at least twice a month but things got hectic and the last month or so has been pretty bad. If you follow me on instagram or facebook then you already know but a very special dog named Saya BooBoo Brown had died back on the 18th of September. A pit-bull puppy had torn through the fence and killed her. Even though it has been over a month it still hurts to know she no longer walks this earth. She will be forever missed. 

On top of that, my grandparents are not doing well. My grandmother is getting worse with her dementia and the pain she has in her legs is making her even more miserable. She is getting sun downers pretty bad now. My grandfather keeps getting bad cases of gout in his foot and can’t even walk. My mother has basically turned back into a full time nurse to try and take care of them but I know it is hard on her as well. 

I want to be able to do more for them myself but I feel pretty useless. When I push myself too hard I end up with fevers and horrible flare ups of my fibro. I guess the stress of all this is not helping.

I couldn’t even concentrate on my test for work and I failed it for the second time. I have one more try but I’m not sure I want to even deal with it right now. I’m just frustrated I failed again when I felt like I was finally understanding this portion. Apparently the admin part is the hardest test of the certification and I’m not the only one who struggled this much with it. Trick questions! So stupid!

My sister and her husband kept having heavy hearts coming home to an empty house that they finally caved and got a rescue dog. They didn’t want to get one too soon but couldn’t stand not having a dog anymore. I think it is good for my sister since she loves dogs so much and it will help her finally move on from Saya. Her name is Mia and she looks like a sweetheart. I can’t wait to meet her. The poor pup lost her owner to death so I feel it is a good match for them. She is a Chiweenie and I will post pictures of her soon.

In good news, the creep from my last post has quit his job so I never have to see his stupid face ever again. Wahoo! Thank god for small blessings.

As for work, I decided to volunteer myself to help with the Halloween Walk-Thru. I like Halloween a lot and I collect decorations every year. Since I don’t put them all up until Halloween day because of bad weather and possibility that people will steal them, I thought I could bring them up for the one-day event here. I even made some DIY Halloween decorations using old clothing, newspaper, and trash bags. I think this should be fun. I will be sure to post pictures for my next blog entry!

My ankle is almost healed. I can walk a lot more now even though I limp a bit. At least it doesn’t hurt a lot, it feels more stiff than anything. I’m just ready to get back to exercise because I’m tired of the weight gain I have. Bah!

I hope I have happier things to post about on my next entry. 

Last but not least…

It’s asexual awareness week! 

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  1. I am sorry to hear about the passing of Saya BooBoo. It always hurts the most when pets pass away. It is good that the creep quit his job. all of these things make a difference. Sending you lots of positivity!

    Nancy ♥

    • ongaku ongaku

      Yeah, I will always miss her. Thanks ♥

  2. Poor baby. 🙁 I wish I could say more to ease you but I’m here if you need anyone.
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    • ongaku ongaku

      Thank you. ♥

  3. I’m so sorry about Saya BooBoo Brown. Its hard to lose pets. What kind of dog were they? Looks like a chihuahua to me. I love those kind of dogs.

    Also sorry to hear about your grandparents. I know you want to help, but don’t harm yourself in the process. I think they’d want you to stay in good health.

    • ongaku ongaku

      Thanks ♥ She is suppose to be a chihuahua but she doesn’t look like she was full blood. Not sure what she was mixed with but it didn’t matter, she was still lovely.

      Yeah, lets hope so. I try to be around them at least but lately they have taken to saying hurtful things so I’m just backing off for a bit.

  4. Cat Cat

    I’m sorry to hear everything that’s happened lately 🙁 You’ve had Saya for so long, and I feel like I’ve seen her photos for years on your blog and social media. Even though I never met her, I was so sad to hear that she passed and in such a terrible way. I hope things will get better for you! <3

    • ongaku ongaku

      Thank you, it is crazy how much losing her hurts. I thought I was getting better but every now and then I remember I will never see her again and get real sad. Still, I’m not trying to hold back because I feel like that would make me worse. ♥

  5. So sorry to hear about Saya, that’s awful. And also about your grandparents, they’re very lucky to have your mum looking after them and to have such a caring granddaughter!
    I hope your third try at the test went/goes well – all the stress you’ve been under can’t have helped. Good luck <3

    • ongaku ongaku

      Thanks, and yes my grandparents are lucky to have a daughter who use to be a nurse to help them. ♥ I have yet to take the test but hopefully! 🙂

  6. I am really sorry to hear about Saya BooBoo Brown 🙁 I am going through a similar thing right now with my father as you are with your grandmother. It’s so hard to deal with and watch and know that there is only so much you can do to help them. I am also sorry to hear about your test at work. Having issues at work is hard but sometimes it has a lot to do with other issues going on in your life. Hopefully, the third try will be the charm and go well. Good luck!
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    • ongaku ongaku

      Losing a pet really sucks. Yeah, it truly is. I want to spend time with her but at the same time I don’t because she could fly off the handle any moment with getting confused, which then makes her mad. Thanks ♥

      • I totally get that. My father gets very confused and angry and he then tries to make everyone else feel his pain and frustration and then everyone is upset. I struggle with wanting to be there every moment to spend time with him and then other times not wanting to be around him at all. It’s hard. Hang in there.

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