Hello? Anyone out there? haha.
I can’t believe I haven’t posted anything in so long… I mean I have never been good at making many posts but I use to do one at least once a month.
Honestly, I went through a dark period. I have gotten depressed before but I’m not clinically depressed so usually I would get depressed for a day or two due to having lots of pain that day or maybe just being worn out from the pain. However, this was going on for waaayyy to long. Plus, I’m resilient… pain sucks but if I still can function I will push through it to do the things I like so I knew this was not normal.
One day I did something with a 20 dollar bill and I couldn’t, for the life of me, remember what. I tried hard to remember, but the things I could think of didn’t seem very realistic. It was more like a dream feeling… did that really happen? That scared me!
Then it dawned on me… the lyrica!
So yeah, once I lowered the dose of the lyrica I started to feel better. The lyrica was making me want to do nothing but sleep and eat so I’m really not happy with my weight right now.
The sad thing is it didn’t stop my pain. I actually ended up with a horrible flare that went on for three weeks.
The only draw back to lowering my dose is that now the twitching is slowly coming back but not drastically so maybe the smaller does will keep it at bay.
However, the twitching doesn’t hurt so I would rather twitch some than be a freakin zombie.
Also, my grandfather gave me a huge scare again. We had to put him back in the hospital and one day he got so bad that he got a bit violent. He couldn’t comprehend anything and was getting ugly with my mother, like his mind was not there at all. He is back home now and doing much better.
I’m getting back into the swing of things again. I’m able to work out again and I’m watching my diet to get back on track so my doctor doesn’t scold me when I see her next month.
Some good things that happened were…
- I got a new car! It’s not new… but it’s new to me and I’m so glad because my other car was getting unsafe to drive. This car is a Nissan Altima 2010. I have to get the inside detailed soon cause it has a strange smell to it. The guy who owned it before must have driven it on a farm or something because there was a lot of dirt in it. I cleaned up a lot of that myself but I think a professional detailing will help even more. I did have to put more money into it, which sucked cause it had window electrical problems but that is fixed now and the other parts of the car should just be regular servicing. I sold my old car to a guy who works on cars and sales them so that helps me pay for my new car service. I really think the guy was being generous by giving me 400 for the old car but I’m not going to complain.
- We got part of our bonus at work when we didn’t think we would get any of it! Every year if we meet certain standard we usually get a 500 dollar bonus. We didn’t do so well on the patient survey part this time but since we did well with the budget we at least got 300 bucks. That helps with my savings.
- Being off the Gluten for 5+ months didn’t change a dang thing… this could be seen as bad news but I’m happy because I can eat gluten again and not have to restrict my diet so much. This means I can go back to cooking some of my favorite dishes as well as go back to some of my favorite restaurants.
I thought I should end my blog post with some happier stuff. I hope everyone is doing well. I will be visiting blogs soon!