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Goodbye Sweet Saya

I was trying to post at least twice a month but things got hectic and the last month or so has been pretty bad. If you follow me on instagram or facebook then you already know but a very special dog named Saya BooBoo Brown had died back on the 18th of September. A pit-bull puppy had torn through the fence and killed her. Even though it has been over a month it still hurts to know she no longer walks this earth. She will be forever missed. 

On top of that, my grandparents are not doing well. My grandmother is getting worse with her dementia and the pain she has in her legs is making her even more miserable. She is getting sun downers pretty bad now. My grandfather keeps getting bad cases of gout in his foot and can’t even walk. My mother has basically turned back into a full time nurse to try and take care of them but I know it is hard on her as well. 

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Next stop, utter depression

I’m at my wits end. I would cry non-stop except that I just don’t have the energy. Every now and then, the frustration really gets me and I let out a few tears. Three times… three miserable times! I have been admitted into the hospital in less than a year. The first time was really rough, I went through major surgery, my surgeon went through my small bowl three times, I was in the hospital for two weeks… but I thought I was cured. For 7-8 months I felt wonderful! I had energy I was able to go to the bathroom like normal. Life was feeling great, I had no idea what being without pain was like!

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